If I had you

so here i sit.. alone. Husbands gone to bed. and i;m down here bitchy, and hungry and a bit drunk. playing kol. I dont want to fuckin go to bed. I'm in a fuckin pissy ass mood. and to think i was in a good mood for the first part of the day. But that fuckin changes on a fuckin dime and OOOOOH i just bet someone is going to fuckin say why dont you fucking discuss this in therapy. Well fuck you. Fuck you with a big fuckin plastic donkey dick. I dont fuckin care. So why am i bothering to post this fuckin post. Fuck if i fuckin know. I just. am.

I was in a good mood this afternoon. I WAS.. I was almost giddy I was bouncing.

But now. Well thats fucked.
Theres just so much that i would love to fuckin say here. But fuck if i can do that with out someone getting pissed off at me. There is just so much I feel that I cant talk about. cause it would hurt someone elses fuckin feeling. Well what the fuck about my fuckin feelings. Or its just not fcukin politically correct. Or what the fuck ever. What about my thoughts... oh cant say that. Cause someone will make a little fuckin joke about my thoughts. SOmeone will throw a barb at me for thinking that way. So i cant SHARE everything. Only the happy fuckin perky things.


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