Lost
Had a lovely chat with rian last night(thursday night), had to much to drink and tspend a lovly evening with a little plastic pail, which turned into a even better morning again with said pail. So it kept me on the couch for a good part of the day, watching tv. Which is something I dont usually do.
But wait it gets better. In my weaked state both emotionally and physically, I was flipping thru the channels and came across this cartoon. The bernstein bears. They were having a jump rope compitition. And the mama bear says to the little girl bear, "As long as you try your best, your still a winner" and really I just lost it and this time it didnt involved the pail. I just sat on the couch and cried.
So i guess it takes a 2 beers, 2 gin and tonics, a triple shot of whiskey, yakking all night long and a damn kids cartoon to finally realize something. Gosh its hard to even type this without getting all emotional again. Its exactly what I needed to hear. I am sure I had heard it a thousand times. But I think i needed to be at my lowest for it to finally sink into to this damn head of mine.
But wait.. theres more.
More tv. Watching this show on the travel channel, its pseudo reality show thingy, like a Cruise to Lose show. 10 overweight people and they show them excercises and teach them how to eat right..blah blah blah. ANyway at the end of the show they ask these 10 people what thier life goals are and this one girl says, "To tell myself that I'm beautiful as soon as I get up in the morning"
Again the waterworks start. So last night was great even tho I felt like utter crap all day, it finally got me to thinking about my health, both physically and mentally.
Funny how life is.
So originally I made my new sig line to refleft the drinks I had last night, they went down, then came back up. But its not the only thing, thats gonna come back up. Its gonna take time. But I'm gonna get up again.
But wait it gets better. In my weaked state both emotionally and physically, I was flipping thru the channels and came across this cartoon. The bernstein bears. They were having a jump rope compitition. And the mama bear says to the little girl bear, "As long as you try your best, your still a winner" and really I just lost it and this time it didnt involved the pail. I just sat on the couch and cried.
So i guess it takes a 2 beers, 2 gin and tonics, a triple shot of whiskey, yakking all night long and a damn kids cartoon to finally realize something. Gosh its hard to even type this without getting all emotional again. Its exactly what I needed to hear. I am sure I had heard it a thousand times. But I think i needed to be at my lowest for it to finally sink into to this damn head of mine.
But wait.. theres more.
More tv. Watching this show on the travel channel, its pseudo reality show thingy, like a Cruise to Lose show. 10 overweight people and they show them excercises and teach them how to eat right..blah blah blah. ANyway at the end of the show they ask these 10 people what thier life goals are and this one girl says, "To tell myself that I'm beautiful as soon as I get up in the morning"
Again the waterworks start. So last night was great even tho I felt like utter crap all day, it finally got me to thinking about my health, both physically and mentally.
Funny how life is.
So originally I made my new sig line to refleft the drinks I had last night, they went down, then came back up. But its not the only thing, thats gonna come back up. Its gonna take time. But I'm gonna get up again.
posted by B at 4:59 PM
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