Deadweight on Velvateen

2nd night went pretty much as the first. Rushed home after work, er..to the "original" house, tossed some clothes in the washer. Packed some towels and a few other things into bags, had a small sandwich for dinner and then rushed off into the night. To the new place.

Put my 2nd and 3rd items into the refrigerator.. bagels and cheese. I've got a whopping 3 things in my fridge right now. BBQ sauce, swiss cheese and 5 bagels. It was 6 last night however, as the bagel became breakfast. Shuffled stuff around so I could plug in the toaster oven. Took out my only knife (a steak knife at that) and spread some peanut butter on it.

I did a little unpacking this morning, not very much as I dont really have everything i need.

Cept bugs. LOTS of fuckin bugs. I've killed 3 large bugs and 1 small one in a bombing mission in the bathroom.

I'm beat. I'm not sleeping well and when I do my dreams are often running me ragged or giving me anxiety. Its gotta get out some how, unfortunatly for me its keeping me up at night.

I better get back to packing the boys are coming over to help me move my dresser. I also need clothes and hangers and and and and and and.. everything else that I'm missing.

I wonder when I will feel "normal" when waking up in a cold bedroom wont make me think about everything i've lost.