Get a Life
"Time to get a life" says the queensryche singer. I guess it is.
Went out for margaritas and tears last night. Not very many tears mind you but there were some.
In the back of my head I just keep thinking, Here i am.. alive, in love, happy with myself and who I've become... this should be the best time for me. And it isnt cause I've no one to share with. Before a couple months ago, I didnt like sex at all it was nothing but a chore. And i could never combine sex=love, now I see how they fit together, I now see how they are one in the same. And still here i am, and soon to be very alone.
No one really knows whats going to go on during the next year. But I know that I feel like I will never trust or love anyone again. I wont say ever again, ever is a long time.
Is it possible that after our separation, Glenn and I will be a couple again. I say anything is possible.
Is it possible that after our separation Glenn and I will not be a couple? Anything is possible.
I know in my heart I was meant to be with him.
But if I'm not, how will I love again. How will I trust anyone with my heart again?
I met Glenn after a very awful breakup with so many lies and pain. Glenn showed me that there didnt have to be lies to be in love, there didnt have to be the pain (until now that is). But he made me feel something else that I had never felt before. Trust.
Will I be able to trust someone again? Will I be able to trust Glenn again?
How many heartbreaks does it take? How many does it take for your heart to solidify to to stone. (yea that sounds cheesy doesnt it)
On our way home last night I said that relationships are like busses and bus stops. Sometimes they run on time, sometimes they are really late, and sometimes the driver will just pass you by, thinking that your some drunk homeless person sleeping in the shelter.
Went out for margaritas and tears last night. Not very many tears mind you but there were some.
In the back of my head I just keep thinking, Here i am.. alive, in love, happy with myself and who I've become... this should be the best time for me. And it isnt cause I've no one to share with. Before a couple months ago, I didnt like sex at all it was nothing but a chore. And i could never combine sex=love, now I see how they fit together, I now see how they are one in the same. And still here i am, and soon to be very alone.
No one really knows whats going to go on during the next year. But I know that I feel like I will never trust or love anyone again. I wont say ever again, ever is a long time.
Is it possible that after our separation, Glenn and I will be a couple again. I say anything is possible.
Is it possible that after our separation Glenn and I will not be a couple? Anything is possible.
I know in my heart I was meant to be with him.
But if I'm not, how will I love again. How will I trust anyone with my heart again?
I met Glenn after a very awful breakup with so many lies and pain. Glenn showed me that there didnt have to be lies to be in love, there didnt have to be the pain (until now that is). But he made me feel something else that I had never felt before. Trust.
Will I be able to trust someone again? Will I be able to trust Glenn again?
How many heartbreaks does it take? How many does it take for your heart to solidify to to stone. (yea that sounds cheesy doesnt it)
On our way home last night I said that relationships are like busses and bus stops. Sometimes they run on time, sometimes they are really late, and sometimes the driver will just pass you by, thinking that your some drunk homeless person sleeping in the shelter.
posted by B at 11:09 AM
1 Comments:
Hey you. I was just thinking of you, as I so often do.
I wish I could be there. Hair dying and dinner party, maybe? I promise, nothing with weird textures.
Do get me that phone number when you have it, love.
-s.tart
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