Grow Old with Me
Today is a day off. I was doing some sorting and tossing. I have a little white cabinet that I need to clear out so I can make room for socks and other things that dont fit into my dresser.
IN said little white cabinet, was wedding stuff, cards people sent us, and other little momento's that were destined to become part of a wedding album/scrapbook thing. Something else that never got finished.
Then in moving some other boxes around and trying to emtpy some things. I found cards and notes he had sent me, when we were still dating (in separate cities). Cards from our first anniversary, valentines day, and birthdays. I wonder where that man went. I wonder where is the man who wrote "yours forever" and "your kisses are sweeter than candy".
Does he still exist the man that wrote those things to me? I dont know. Do I hope he can exist again? With all my heart, I do.
In apartment news, I hung up my first poster/print thing.
In health news, my tooth is currently killing me and I have yet another dental appointment at 1pm today.
My left foot is still quite swollen so i'm spending most of my day sitting.
I went to the bar last night. I got some chicken fingers and 2 gin & tonics. I started talking to this guy about victora and for the life of me I couldnt remember the brewery Glenn and I love up there. The guy offered to buy me a drink, but i was exhausted and just hurt all over so I politely declined.
I came to the house around 9something am and he was still in bed. I had to leave, cause every part of me wanted to climb in bed with him and just be warm in his arms. But I know that i would probably just have started to cry. When memories of love is all you have its hard to accept this current situation.
Also the sting of what he said to me a few days ago, is still haunting me a bit. His words really hurt me, those words he cant remember saying. I remember them, just as I remember the love.
IN said little white cabinet, was wedding stuff, cards people sent us, and other little momento's that were destined to become part of a wedding album/scrapbook thing. Something else that never got finished.
Then in moving some other boxes around and trying to emtpy some things. I found cards and notes he had sent me, when we were still dating (in separate cities). Cards from our first anniversary, valentines day, and birthdays. I wonder where that man went. I wonder where is the man who wrote "yours forever" and "your kisses are sweeter than candy".
Does he still exist the man that wrote those things to me? I dont know. Do I hope he can exist again? With all my heart, I do.
In apartment news, I hung up my first poster/print thing.
In health news, my tooth is currently killing me and I have yet another dental appointment at 1pm today.
My left foot is still quite swollen so i'm spending most of my day sitting.
I went to the bar last night. I got some chicken fingers and 2 gin & tonics. I started talking to this guy about victora and for the life of me I couldnt remember the brewery Glenn and I love up there. The guy offered to buy me a drink, but i was exhausted and just hurt all over so I politely declined.
I came to the house around 9something am and he was still in bed. I had to leave, cause every part of me wanted to climb in bed with him and just be warm in his arms. But I know that i would probably just have started to cry. When memories of love is all you have its hard to accept this current situation.
Also the sting of what he said to me a few days ago, is still haunting me a bit. His words really hurt me, those words he cant remember saying. I remember them, just as I remember the love.
posted by B at 11:58 AM
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