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Work was frustrating today. (seems familar doesnt it)
OOf. fuckin a.
Its too soon to be this frustrated with my job. I love lots of it. but Hate so much more of it.

I'm at the house trying to determine where i should take myself to dinner. I am craving something healthy (ish) all i've had in the past few weeks is sausage, burritos, and other crap. Only vegetable i've seen is lettuce and tomatos.

I need something healthy to eat. My body is broken. It just feels broken. My feet are killing me, my back is killing me, and my head, well its killing me.

As well as my fuckin crown that I think was made wrong.
Honestly I'm not this bitter all the time. Just my enviorment isnt very healthy right now and its spreading throughout the rest of the stuff in my life. My health and my mental state caused by this move is affecting my body in ways I dont need it to. I'm thinking the crap that I'm eating isnt helping either. I actually remembered to take a multi vitamin today.

I need something good to happen soon. Some little ray of light (not to be all madonna there) but something to show me that all this misery i'm currently in will pass. I know its soon. I know I just moved in and I cant expect a miracle, but i'm just hoping for something to happen thats positive. I thought about going into my work tomorrow to get some reiki done as well as a body wrap in the hopes that if I care for my body a bit then I will feel better. thats still undecided if I will or not. I think i'm just gonna want to sleep for most of tomorrow. Or maybe just take myself to the local bar and drink all day, by myself or with one of the local fishermen.

Its gonna get better I know it. I just wish IT would hurry its ass up.

(not sure if i said this in an earlier post, but all the titles of my posts are named after the song i'm currently listening to as I start the post) I've always found music to sooth me, some soothes more than other, and some music just makes me want to hurt someone. Not naming names.