Harmony
He says he spent 5 years building resentment towards me. He says he never wanted to get married. He says he was forced into it. He says he only supposedly loved me.
Ok so can see and understand the resentment thing. But the love was real. We both know the love was real.
Breakfast consisted of a bagel with peanut butter. About an ounce of cheese and 1/4 of a blueberry yogurt(low fat).
He says were strong enough to move apart. Then why am I feeling like this. Why does nothing have flavor anymore. Why am I finding nothing to laugh at anymore. Why am I asking hypothetical questions with out question marks.
Why do I constatly have this tiny little nagging feeling that this isnt over.
I see my therapist on thursday at 1. I havent seen her in weeks.
This isnt over.
Its hard, I want to spend time with him cause i love his company and conversation. And yet I want him to heal himself. I want him to feel like himself again. Its a fine line and a double edged sword that I seem to be falling on time and time again.
Ok so can see and understand the resentment thing. But the love was real. We both know the love was real.
Breakfast consisted of a bagel with peanut butter. About an ounce of cheese and 1/4 of a blueberry yogurt(low fat).
He says were strong enough to move apart. Then why am I feeling like this. Why does nothing have flavor anymore. Why am I finding nothing to laugh at anymore. Why am I asking hypothetical questions with out question marks.
Why do I constatly have this tiny little nagging feeling that this isnt over.
I see my therapist on thursday at 1. I havent seen her in weeks.
This isnt over.
Its hard, I want to spend time with him cause i love his company and conversation. And yet I want him to heal himself. I want him to feel like himself again. Its a fine line and a double edged sword that I seem to be falling on time and time again.
posted by B at 10:04 AM
2 Comments:
Forced into it? I don't know him at all and I wasn't there when ya'll got married, but unless there's a child (and even then) or a shotgun at his head, there was no true coersion. The denial of that love seems hurtful to me.
Sounds a bit fishy. I can see having reservations about marriage but forced into it? Supposedly loved you? Now that really doesn't make sense. He is just hurting and trying to push you away.
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