I'll Get Even

Today felt different. Not sure how or why. But it just felt different. I felt an energy that I havent felt in a long time. I also felt something else.. hunger. I ate like a ravenous creature today.
I couldnt be stopped with the eating.
Dinner tonight was insane
1 wing, leg and thigh of chicken.
1/2 a package of chicken rice stuff.
2+ oz of cheese
and a chocolate pudding.

But from like 5-6 o clock on I just felt something I havent felt in a long time. I dont know what it was.

I also said the words "my husband" today without being nauseated, cringing or sad.

I wonder whats going on in the universe, a new energy came to me today and it felt wonderful. I thank whatever it is for appearing. I felt happiness and love, dont know where from but, it was well received. I will also send out love tonight 10 fold to repay it, for someone else out there that might need some extra. Cause with all that food in me, I got lots of pent up energy.

Currently the only thing pissing me off right now is Itunes. This fucker wont shuffle anymore no matter what settings I change it to. They got some smart shuffle thing and its not working anymore.

Other than that, I feel good. I've eaten more today than I have in weeks.

I am human and I need to be loved
just like everybody else does

The Smiths, How Soon is Now

I could really use some real love right now.

(yes i think I've already given up on the not posting here, I tried posting somewhere else but.. this is very comforting to me)