Let Me See
I got an email from him today. Which layed all the cards on the table, if we continue this way, we are just going to wind up hurting each other more.
He says I'm blinded by my love for him. Which is true. I am. So I sent him a reply back which he so far hasnt responded to. No contact for 1-2 weeks. Just so we can.. er should I say I can learn or start learning how to.. I guess move on. But its not really moving on its more of an out of sight out of mind. Well thats not true either. Its just to give him the space he needs and me going on about my love for him and so forth just pushes him away from me.
Maybe he's thinking it over? Maybe the email just upset him more, I just dont know anymore. He wanted to stay friends through all of this. I have to take this time to figure out how i'm feeling (besides hopelessly in love with him). 2 weeks or so without any contact. Its going to be weird. Its going to be painful. But we are both floundering in agony due to each others actions, and somewhere thats gotta stop. Maybe this cooling off period, not really sure what to call it. (That is if he wants to do it.) will help each of us.
We will see.
I think I'm gonna go to bed "early" tonight. Maybe do some reading.
I sent emails to a couple guys that responded to my CL ad.. I may have "dates" coming up soon. Then the question is, do I take off the ring.
I dont think I have that in me yet.
He says I'm blinded by my love for him. Which is true. I am. So I sent him a reply back which he so far hasnt responded to. No contact for 1-2 weeks. Just so we can.. er should I say I can learn or start learning how to.. I guess move on. But its not really moving on its more of an out of sight out of mind. Well thats not true either. Its just to give him the space he needs and me going on about my love for him and so forth just pushes him away from me.
Maybe he's thinking it over? Maybe the email just upset him more, I just dont know anymore. He wanted to stay friends through all of this. I have to take this time to figure out how i'm feeling (besides hopelessly in love with him). 2 weeks or so without any contact. Its going to be weird. Its going to be painful. But we are both floundering in agony due to each others actions, and somewhere thats gotta stop. Maybe this cooling off period, not really sure what to call it. (That is if he wants to do it.) will help each of us.
We will see.
I think I'm gonna go to bed "early" tonight. Maybe do some reading.
I sent emails to a couple guys that responded to my CL ad.. I may have "dates" coming up soon. Then the question is, do I take off the ring.
I dont think I have that in me yet.
posted by B at 11:34 PM
1 Comments:
>He wanted to stay friends through all of this
Yeah, that's what Russell said too.
But you know what?
I have 0 deisre to be friends with a person who treats me like that. i wouldn't put up with that kind of behaviour from you, or Chuck, or Booker, or iii & p, or any one of my other friends. I've ended friendships with people for less. Why was I cutting him so much slack?
I don't want to be friends with people who hurt me, are fully aware that what they do hurts me, and yet continue to do it anyway.
Ask yourself if you'd take that kind of abuse from any of your other friends.
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