Saturday night's alright for fighting
This is a ccrayzy drunken bolog post
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Someone said something to day to me and it made sense. My love for him is all that i know. And thats why its so hard t give it up. After my depression ended and I didnt know my marriage was over all I knew was the love he gave me. I had grown used to the love he had gave me, throught all of the bad times and when i fianlly gopt out ofit . Its all I knew. and thats is what she said is why I'm so stuck to him. But I think its more than that. Sure I a,m sure thats some of it.
I fiannlly knew what love meant and I meant and ,ean it with him. wooo.. beer
anyway. I miss him like crayzy. And I lve him. I knew when I met him I would love him til i died.
oof need water
Another friend said. why stay and love someone who hurts you so badly and someone who hurts you so badly on propse. I dont know. The more he hurt methe more I wanted him. therefore te more invetntive ways he ca me up to hurt em,.
A girl name d (girl he is currently fuckin) came in the store tonight, she was a red head. In some weird way I so wanted to kick her ass. And I'm not violent, cause hitting doesnt equal violence.
oof
moe water
i looked good tonight.
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Someone said something to day to me and it made sense. My love for him is all that i know. And thats why its so hard t give it up. After my depression ended and I didnt know my marriage was over all I knew was the love he gave me. I had grown used to the love he had gave me, throught all of the bad times and when i fianlly gopt out ofit . Its all I knew. and thats is what she said is why I'm so stuck to him. But I think its more than that. Sure I a,m sure thats some of it.
I fiannlly knew what love meant and I meant and ,ean it with him. wooo.. beer
anyway. I miss him like crayzy. And I lve him. I knew when I met him I would love him til i died.
oof need water
Another friend said. why stay and love someone who hurts you so badly and someone who hurts you so badly on propse. I dont know. The more he hurt methe more I wanted him. therefore te more invetntive ways he ca me up to hurt em,.
A girl name d (girl he is currently fuckin) came in the store tonight, she was a red head. In some weird way I so wanted to kick her ass. And I'm not violent, cause hitting doesnt equal violence.
oof
moe water
i looked good tonight.
posted by B at 12:28 AM
1 Comments:
I don't know if you're interested, but it might help you to do some reading on domestic violence/abuse. While I understand your situation is not to that extreme, I think there are a lot of parallels in that whole "I still keep loving him" thing and always going back to getting hurt again because you love the person. I don't expect you find a lot of 'a ha!' answers, but it might help you understand some things or help you process or cope better.
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