These Days

Sonnet for Finding Friends

It finally happened outside of my therapy session
The happiness light inside me was bright as the sun.
I was told I no longer had depression.
Unfortunately the damage was done.

My husband showed me the door;
Saying, his love for me had quit.
My heart sank low, beyond the basement floor.
I kept asking him, is this legit?

So here I am at the start of a separation,
Thirty three, and tired of sitting quietly
Looking for friendship, laughter, and joyous celebrations
Someone or someones who won't mind me treading slowly.

I've got employment, a new place and a smile in my soul
Is there anyone out there that can play the “Just Friends” role?


I've considered posting it to craigslist or other sorts of datey places. But Not really sure I'm ready for that either. But it was fun to write in a sonnet style, I hadnt done it in a while. And someone suggested I try it out.

As much as I miss him and thats an a never ending battle. Specially when I lay down at night, thats when I feel so cold and alone. With no amount of blankets will warm me. Last night seemed harder than the rest.

I still feel happy with who I am. I'm holding my head higher than its ever been before. And I know I have work to do on my outer shell and a bit on the soft inside too. But now there is nothing in my way anymore. I feel so good about myself its a neat feeling. Its odd to be so happy with ones self and yet so miserable about my current situation. Maybe someday I will post that sonnet somewhere and find some more friends.

BUT.. lemme talk about my New friends. Coworkers, but going to be good friends I can just tell.

There's danica, the tiniest thing, who cant weigh 100 pounds when she's sopping wet. She is on my work team. I get to go to her birthday celebration in a week or so. She wanted me there cause "i'm her friend". It made me smile.

Then there is this new girl, Nichelle, I love her attitude and her thoughts on top shelf liquors. I cant wait to hang out and party with her!

Me and work are finally finding ways of getting thru the day. And tomorrow.. the rainbow pedicure! WOO! Tomorrow is gonna be a great day.