To much love will kill you
There is construction outside of my apartment today.
I retract a drunken statement I made last night. re: the redhead that came in the shop with the same name. I wouldnt of done a darn thing. And it was very wrong to say that. BUt its amazing what fear, jealousy and envy can do to a person. Strong emotions all three. And combined causes the mind to twist and concoct mysterious situations that dont really exist.
I'm dehydrated.
I'm in pain
and I may have a date tonight.
I have therapy this afternoon.
I'm glad I walked to downtown ballard this morning instead of going to the house to do laundry. Glenn is there, which would of been awkward considering our 3 week silence period.
I may have a solution to my pot rack problem and I maybe solving it for under 3 dollars.
I cracked me up last night after I left the sloop tavern. Some boys were riding by on thier bikes (they were in their 20's) I asked, hey can you give a girl a lift home. The guy on the 10 speed says hop on (his handlebars), he says all you need is grace and I replied I have as much grace as I have virginity. We both laughed, he rode on and I stumbled home.
The sloop was fun, went with my cowokers about 4 of them we were talking such shit and itwas so entertaining.
Rush, Glenns favorite band, and the song is Resist. I heard that one today. And I'm trying to learn to co-exist with this pain.
I still think that the resentment is clouding his thinking. And the pain is clouding mine.
Today I also thought about, who exactly am I writing this all for. I'm just writing it, but i'm writing it in a public forum. I could easily just make it read only just for me just to write it all down. But I'm not its wide open for the world to see. I wonder do people think glenn is a monster, an evil bastard for hurting me like this. Do people think I'm an innocent party in this. I hope not. Glenn isnt evil and I'm not innocent. We both made mistakes in this.
My mind is all jumbly, best not write anymore.
I heard a u2 song that I wanted to post some lyrics too, but i cant remember which one it was right now. Maybe my next post.
What a weird life. Living at home til my early 20's, feelings of abandonemnt when my mother left after they split. Then the ensuing mental abuse from my father and stepmother. Then finding and marrying someone who loves me and treated me with respect for so many years to wind up like this. Very strange indeed.
I retract a drunken statement I made last night. re: the redhead that came in the shop with the same name. I wouldnt of done a darn thing. And it was very wrong to say that. BUt its amazing what fear, jealousy and envy can do to a person. Strong emotions all three. And combined causes the mind to twist and concoct mysterious situations that dont really exist.
I'm dehydrated.
I'm in pain
and I may have a date tonight.
I have therapy this afternoon.
I'm glad I walked to downtown ballard this morning instead of going to the house to do laundry. Glenn is there, which would of been awkward considering our 3 week silence period.
I may have a solution to my pot rack problem and I maybe solving it for under 3 dollars.
I cracked me up last night after I left the sloop tavern. Some boys were riding by on thier bikes (they were in their 20's) I asked, hey can you give a girl a lift home. The guy on the 10 speed says hop on (his handlebars), he says all you need is grace and I replied I have as much grace as I have virginity. We both laughed, he rode on and I stumbled home.
The sloop was fun, went with my cowokers about 4 of them we were talking such shit and itwas so entertaining.
can learn to resist
Anything but temptation
I can learn to co-exist
With anything but pain
I can learn to compromise
Anything but my desires
I can learn to get along
With all the things I cant explain
Rush, Glenns favorite band, and the song is Resist. I heard that one today. And I'm trying to learn to co-exist with this pain.
I still think that the resentment is clouding his thinking. And the pain is clouding mine.
Today I also thought about, who exactly am I writing this all for. I'm just writing it, but i'm writing it in a public forum. I could easily just make it read only just for me just to write it all down. But I'm not its wide open for the world to see. I wonder do people think glenn is a monster, an evil bastard for hurting me like this. Do people think I'm an innocent party in this. I hope not. Glenn isnt evil and I'm not innocent. We both made mistakes in this.
My mind is all jumbly, best not write anymore.
I heard a u2 song that I wanted to post some lyrics too, but i cant remember which one it was right now. Maybe my next post.
What a weird life. Living at home til my early 20's, feelings of abandonemnt when my mother left after they split. Then the ensuing mental abuse from my father and stepmother. Then finding and marrying someone who loves me and treated me with respect for so many years to wind up like this. Very strange indeed.
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