Your Savior
So on one of my message boards someone posed this question..
Whats the best part about being married?
Here are some of the answers:
Yep.. All of those and more. Cause its called commitment and love. I was thinking on the way home today, that if this separation didnt happen, that in time there would of been so many good times it would of completly eclipse the bad. Not to say that the whole 5 years was bad, there was some completely and utterly fabulous times in there. And its those memories that keep my spirits up day after day. But there was some bad times there, I know it, he knows it. But I figured now that I'm no longer depressed, I just thought about the years of GREAT times we should be having together. Now i'm not saying that good times now would erase all the bad times of the past, but I am saying that the goodtimes in time, would of outweighed all the bad times.
Its just all the false impressions I got from him the past few months. The fact that his subliminal messages was how i was supposed to figure out that something was wrong. He said he wanted to tell me all this before tahoe, but didnt want to ruin our time there. It all just feels like lies to me now, the trip around the lake, the cuddling in the jacuzzi, the showshoeing/xcountry skiing trip. Funny, I thought we were having a good time together and to think that whole time he hated me. No clue.
Ok I gotta end this one now before I get any more angry. My anger level is increasing and I got to stop it now. Its just better if I dont feel this way.
But its funny.. up until a little over a month ago, I thought all those things above about my marriage.
(I edited a few things to make them clear, its hard to think when your angry)
Whats the best part about being married?
Here are some of the answers:
Having someone to support me and love me and let me be me.
Laughing our asses off over nothing.
Getting to live with my favorite buddy.
Supporting someone else and loving someone else and letting him be himself.
Sharing dinner.
Having someone to bake for.
Having someone appreciate my off-the-wall sense of humor.
Finding the other half of your soul.
Being connected to someone who is connected to you.
Sleeping next to each other and waking up with his warm body right there.
Having someone who REALLY cares about how you feel.
Having someone make you laugh.
Having someone to share good news and bad news with.
having a partner who is strong in the areas i'm weak (and vice versa)
Being with someone who "gets" me
Yep.. All of those and more. Cause its called commitment and love. I was thinking on the way home today, that if this separation didnt happen, that in time there would of been so many good times it would of completly eclipse the bad. Not to say that the whole 5 years was bad, there was some completely and utterly fabulous times in there. And its those memories that keep my spirits up day after day. But there was some bad times there, I know it, he knows it. But I figured now that I'm no longer depressed, I just thought about the years of GREAT times we should be having together. Now i'm not saying that good times now would erase all the bad times of the past, but I am saying that the goodtimes in time, would of outweighed all the bad times.
Its just all the false impressions I got from him the past few months. The fact that his subliminal messages was how i was supposed to figure out that something was wrong. He said he wanted to tell me all this before tahoe, but didnt want to ruin our time there. It all just feels like lies to me now, the trip around the lake, the cuddling in the jacuzzi, the showshoeing/xcountry skiing trip. Funny, I thought we were having a good time together and to think that whole time he hated me. No clue.
Ok I gotta end this one now before I get any more angry. My anger level is increasing and I got to stop it now. Its just better if I dont feel this way.
But its funny.. up until a little over a month ago, I thought all those things above about my marriage.
(I edited a few things to make them clear, its hard to think when your angry)
posted by B at 8:00 PM
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