Fantastic Fabulous

I feel very weird today. Ok.. weirder than normal.
Very shakey and a little spastic. My chest feels so heavy, my head confused.

I asked a friend whether I should pay for match.com, she says, do you want to get back with your husband. I said yes. Then, she says, you shouldn't date other men. As its not fair to them. She's right. I was just trying to relieve a little bit of everything, frustration, boredom and who knows what else.

Tonight Glenn and I are going to the wake. I'm wearing my kilt.
I remember waking up around 5am this morning and just felt so happy to be alive. I then went back to sleep smiling. I am very happy and very lucky to have the people in my life that I have. There are some very caring people in my world and it makes me very happy.

I'm making more friends at work, so thats cool to. SOme of my work people really do care and are quite concerned since I've had a rough couple months since I started there. People are quite impressed with me actually, with how I'm holding myself together.

I got my velvet cape up on my dress form today. I was looking at it and trying to finally figure out how to sew that bottom together.
Cause I have a dress to make for burning man and I'm going to need that form empty.

I joined a "meet people in seattle" group today under a suggestion from a friend. Hopefully they will have some events my schedule will allow. I've got to work with what I have. I have the schedule that I like, and I just have to work around it to get out and meet others.

So, I'm not going to join match to get those 4 emails and probably soon will pull my profile down.

I still feel weird. Maybe its the fact that I have to go to the wake of a friend tonight with my husband. Maybe its cause i'm working on a day I normally have off. Life is weird.