I'm Not Dead

You can do the math a thousand ways but you can't erase the facts
That others come and others go but you always come back
I'm a winter flower underground always thirsty for summer rain
And just like the change of seasons
I know you'll be back again

I'm not dead just floating
Underneath the ink of my tattoo
I've tried to hide my scars from you
I'm not scared just changing
Right beyond the cigarette and the devilish smile
You're my crack of sunlight oh

Pink's I'm Not Dead

Yesterday I drank a bit. Was so desperate for food I went to taco bell. (whatever, i like taco bell). At around 10:30 I went to bed. Woke up 4 times, and finally got out of bed right around 8am. Then I did something I havent done since march. Since before all this started. I went to the gym.

I'm not dead, just floating
I'm not scared, just changing.

I'm trying to change and adapt to my current surroundings, its tough. Change is tough.

I ran most of a 5k on a treadmill. Cept for about .3 of a mile. So not to bad. It felt good, but I need new shoes.

I worked up a good sweat and felt good about it all.

I also realized i'm not going to bother with writing to any of those guys anymore. I'm to much of a freak for the rest of the world. Between the ones who dont want to work around my schedule or the ones that want me to call them. Bzzzt sorry, wrong answer. I dont do phone communication to well.

So I think I've reached that I gotta get used to this alone shit. Me, my tunes, and my computer.

I'm not dead, just a freak, who is still in love with someone else.