The Show Must Go On
I worked my ass off today. Or at least a small chunk of it. I'm beat. I'm more than beat, i'm beaten.
And yet through all the day, I kept that smile on my face, greeted people with the happiest of happy expressions, even though my insides were crying for sleep and a chair. My feet, in agony, even though i'm wearing the comfy shoes.
My coworkers wanted me to go out with them to see a band play tonight. But I told them I had to pass. It was inventory day today and for 7 1/2 out of the 8 hours I was at work I was putting it away. Lifting box after box. So much inventory. I feel bad, I really wanted to join them. But I feel like I ran a marathon today with all the lifing, bending and placing on shelves I did today. I'm sore. I ache.
So my white dress is officially ruined but it will live again in a new color after I order the dye for it. I think its going to be red. I will start making it again after I get my two quilt squares done. Then I think I need to create one last garmet for the playa this year. I just dont know what yet.
Rent is due tomorrow.
Did I mention I was tired. I thinK i will just eat this chicken breast and go to sleep.
Still living one day at a time. Still missing someone.
I started reading a new self help book about mending my broken heart. I dont like this one. Its basically saying, just use these helpful tricks to start hating them and then you will be over them. I'm like WTF? So I may return it. It did however have some other helpful suggestions.
I hope I sleep better tonight. My mind was just all a sprint last night and around 3 I took a half of a trazadone to sleep. But Life. Life is ok. I still feel fabulous. And I've started inviting people to the bar on saturday night for my birthday. Just something small and casual.
My mind is all over the place with this post. Heh.
Gah chicken is still raw in the middle as i just learned as i was testing it. Back on the pan it goes. Tomorrow I may cook that little chunk of steak I got.
Ok I think thats it.
The show must go on. My smile will stay on.
The show must go on.
And yet through all the day, I kept that smile on my face, greeted people with the happiest of happy expressions, even though my insides were crying for sleep and a chair. My feet, in agony, even though i'm wearing the comfy shoes.
My coworkers wanted me to go out with them to see a band play tonight. But I told them I had to pass. It was inventory day today and for 7 1/2 out of the 8 hours I was at work I was putting it away. Lifting box after box. So much inventory. I feel bad, I really wanted to join them. But I feel like I ran a marathon today with all the lifing, bending and placing on shelves I did today. I'm sore. I ache.
So my white dress is officially ruined but it will live again in a new color after I order the dye for it. I think its going to be red. I will start making it again after I get my two quilt squares done. Then I think I need to create one last garmet for the playa this year. I just dont know what yet.
Rent is due tomorrow.
Did I mention I was tired. I thinK i will just eat this chicken breast and go to sleep.
Still living one day at a time. Still missing someone.
I started reading a new self help book about mending my broken heart. I dont like this one. Its basically saying, just use these helpful tricks to start hating them and then you will be over them. I'm like WTF? So I may return it. It did however have some other helpful suggestions.
I hope I sleep better tonight. My mind was just all a sprint last night and around 3 I took a half of a trazadone to sleep. But Life. Life is ok. I still feel fabulous. And I've started inviting people to the bar on saturday night for my birthday. Just something small and casual.
My mind is all over the place with this post. Heh.
Gah chicken is still raw in the middle as i just learned as i was testing it. Back on the pan it goes. Tomorrow I may cook that little chunk of steak I got.
Ok I think thats it.
The show must go on. My smile will stay on.
The show must go on.
posted by B at 9:30 PM
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