Nobody's Hero

Its friday night and stargate/laundry time. Which I'm thankful after last night I'm still allowed to do. So I got in the shower and relaxed for a good while and I dont usually take long showers. But it felt good. Then it was time to get dressed. I thought about what to wear and since my husband doesnt see me as he used to I was like you know its pointless to look nice. But that means I would be trying to look nice for him and since he doesnt feel that way anymore, why bother. But then I thought. I'm looking nice for me. Tonight is the last night I will be 33. In this year a lot has happened to me. I overcame depression. And prior to that I never would go out of my way to dress nicely. Only when I had to.

Today I want to look good. Cause I feel good. Cause I now know I do look good. So I got on a sexy top, a black leather skirt and my black heels. Those same black heels I will be wearing on my birthday to my little gathering. Cause its now time to not look good for anyone else but myself.

He might not think I'm pretty anymore, but there are others who do. And so do I. So off I go out of 33 and into 34. Finally seeing myself as who I am.