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Had a great time with a friend yesterday. Which will sound odd, when I let it be known that friend is Glenn.
I went over pretty early to do laundry. After watching an episode of deadwood while he was on a IM meeting, we went to lunch at a local thai place.
Then we were off together to a chocolate factory tour. Oh my gosh.. was that wonderful. Then soon the chocolate/caffiene and anything else thats in chocolate chemical wise started kicking our asses. I had such a headache from the amount of chocolate i ingested. We did a little shopping and then went to a variety of bars in the Fremont area. It was happy hour after all. Then drove back to ballard and went to one of our usual haunts. One of our friends joined us there later. I had a bacon cheeseburger and a few double rum and cokes.
Glenn and I then left the bar and went back to his place to watch stargate. However that was after my left leg practically stopped working and I had to have glenn help me get home for part of the walk back. I could hardly bend my knee. It just came out of nowhere.
We talked quite a bit during the day about things we want to do. I talked a lot about my weight and losing some, also about starting to train for the marathon.
I really dont know how or why I am still hung up on weight issues with myself. I guess its like a recent articlethat I read that one doesnt consider themselves thin unless they have a flat stomach. Which I dont have. I have this undulating blob of fat that doesnt seem to get any smaller no matter how much weight I lose.
I will keep trying however.
After I left glenns last night I threw away some junky type food that was left in my house after I got back from burning man. I figured it certainly wasnt going to be helping me in my weight loss.
I also guess I'm just stuck on the fact that when I see personal ad's on various websites, guys are just always looking for one type of girl. Someone thats Height weight proportionate. Which I am not. I look good and as I sit here in my size 8 shorts I know that I'm still not thin "enough" for a large percentage of guys out there. And its all because of my belly. I love the rest of my body. And I know most/all women have one body part they just cant stand. For me Its my belly. I hate it. Its just so pocky and bulbous and not loveable.
But yesterday was a great day and I had a lot of fun with my friend.
I went over pretty early to do laundry. After watching an episode of deadwood while he was on a IM meeting, we went to lunch at a local thai place.
Then we were off together to a chocolate factory tour. Oh my gosh.. was that wonderful. Then soon the chocolate/caffiene and anything else thats in chocolate chemical wise started kicking our asses. I had such a headache from the amount of chocolate i ingested. We did a little shopping and then went to a variety of bars in the Fremont area. It was happy hour after all. Then drove back to ballard and went to one of our usual haunts. One of our friends joined us there later. I had a bacon cheeseburger and a few double rum and cokes.
Glenn and I then left the bar and went back to his place to watch stargate. However that was after my left leg practically stopped working and I had to have glenn help me get home for part of the walk back. I could hardly bend my knee. It just came out of nowhere.
We talked quite a bit during the day about things we want to do. I talked a lot about my weight and losing some, also about starting to train for the marathon.
I really dont know how or why I am still hung up on weight issues with myself. I guess its like a recent articlethat I read that one doesnt consider themselves thin unless they have a flat stomach. Which I dont have. I have this undulating blob of fat that doesnt seem to get any smaller no matter how much weight I lose.
I will keep trying however.
After I left glenns last night I threw away some junky type food that was left in my house after I got back from burning man. I figured it certainly wasnt going to be helping me in my weight loss.
I also guess I'm just stuck on the fact that when I see personal ad's on various websites, guys are just always looking for one type of girl. Someone thats Height weight proportionate. Which I am not. I look good and as I sit here in my size 8 shorts I know that I'm still not thin "enough" for a large percentage of guys out there. And its all because of my belly. I love the rest of my body. And I know most/all women have one body part they just cant stand. For me Its my belly. I hate it. Its just so pocky and bulbous and not loveable.
But yesterday was a great day and I had a lot of fun with my friend.
posted by B at 11:43 AM
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