Back to Mine
Its a morcheeba song. Back to mine. We saw morcheeba in concert together.
watched House of D tonight. Its a david duchovny film. Decent enough film. It talked about changes of people, it talked about love, it talked about transitions.
It made me think about all the changes I've been through in the past few years and there have been many.
Some nights are just harder than others. I never promised that I was completly "over it all".
Tonight is one of those nights. Tonight I just wish I had him to talk to. Talk to about my hopes, my fears. Talk to him about life, the universe and everything. Tonight I wish I had him by my side. Not to sleep with, just to lay there, just to be there when I woke up. Just that presense and that security that even though the world isnt a fair and just place, there was still love in this world. Love and trust, companionship and hope.
I keep thinking, the same issues over and over again.
One of those issues is whether I should join match . com or not. I keep trying to justify it, but some how I never put my money where my mouth is. I have 2 emails to receive on there. I wonder who they are from.
Funny thing at work tonight, oneof my coworkers asked me "are you going to the pub tonight with, what should we call him, your estranged husband, is that right?"
I just replied, he's strange alright. And we both laughed.
People are happy that I'm happy again. I am happy. Sure I'm a bit weepy tongiht, but I'm still human. I still miss the things I miss, I still long for the things I long for. I still.. *sigh* love the ..
Its almost midnight on monday night. I work a 1-10 tomorrow. Tomorrow I go to the gym for another run.
Maybe I will write back to Kevin now. He wants to be my "friend".
watched House of D tonight. Its a david duchovny film. Decent enough film. It talked about changes of people, it talked about love, it talked about transitions.
It made me think about all the changes I've been through in the past few years and there have been many.
Some nights are just harder than others. I never promised that I was completly "over it all".
Tonight is one of those nights. Tonight I just wish I had him to talk to. Talk to about my hopes, my fears. Talk to him about life, the universe and everything. Tonight I wish I had him by my side. Not to sleep with, just to lay there, just to be there when I woke up. Just that presense and that security that even though the world isnt a fair and just place, there was still love in this world. Love and trust, companionship and hope.
I keep thinking, the same issues over and over again.
One of those issues is whether I should join match . com or not. I keep trying to justify it, but some how I never put my money where my mouth is. I have 2 emails to receive on there. I wonder who they are from.
Funny thing at work tonight, oneof my coworkers asked me "are you going to the pub tonight with, what should we call him, your estranged husband, is that right?"
I just replied, he's strange alright. And we both laughed.
People are happy that I'm happy again. I am happy. Sure I'm a bit weepy tongiht, but I'm still human. I still miss the things I miss, I still long for the things I long for. I still.. *sigh* love the ..
Its almost midnight on monday night. I work a 1-10 tomorrow. Tomorrow I go to the gym for another run.
Maybe I will write back to Kevin now. He wants to be my "friend".
posted by B at 11:44 PM
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