Myself

I got my answers. Its over. His answers, spanned a lot of things, from him not being attracted to me, not loving me(which was obvious), doesnt respect me, he's not interested in earing my trust, he doesnt think I'm being honest with myself when it comes to my appearace, he is in love with someone else, madly even and so many other answers including one I dont understand. He said I was to judgemental. I dont think so, but he can think what he wants I guess.

So I got my answers.
So the question is. Where do I go from here.

I was shaking like crazy when reading his email. Not from crying, just from the sheer pain of it. I dont even feel like crying now.

I think one of the things that hurts the most. Is that I thought that when this seperation began. That we would both be in our separate homes allowing us to think and consider all possibilities without any outside influences. The fact that he had someone in the on deck circle just waiting to step up to bat, sort to speak. Because of that I feel that his judgement was affected by the prospects of new love.

Only questions now are... what happens next.
What happens to our debt WE created.
What happens to OUR mutally purchased items.

Ok I'm crying now.