Straight to Hell

Ring came off at 10am this morning.
The eye puffiness cream went on at 10:05.

I cried a lot last night.
I also dreamed of Glenn.

I went over to the house last night to drop off a check to him. My legs buckled from the pain.
I cried curled up in a ball on his floor.
We talked til 3am again, between my sniffling and shaking.

I told him I'm going to try to move on, but I'm never giving up on us. He said thats fine if thats what I need to do.

Still something with us seems unfinished. Like a book thats only half read.

But my suffering has to slow down. This pain has to get easier.

You and me
We used to be together
Every day together always

I really feel
I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end

It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know

No Doubt - Don't Speak

I think thats another part of the equation here... I am losing my best friend or should I say I lost my best friend.

Gosh my hand looks ugly with out the ring. It feels weird. I feel weird and tired.