we're in this together

So here it is 11:11 pm. The pub is having its 3$ cosmo night. I should be there. I'm always there.
But I just feel so blah and lethargic. I napped before i headed to work to do inventory night.
I've had plenty of sleep. But yet I just feel like sleeping all the time. Maybe a walk would do me good. Get me out of this house.

My head is so torn in two.

Its weird to have your head and heart yank and pull so many ways. To many thoughts about "you can do better" "You deserve better" "blah blah blah" "Makes me feel whole" "His smile lights my heart" (gosh that last one sounds corny)

I just been realizing that I just feel so uninspired so blah.. I'm still going through my photos and so far I think they all suck. Last years photos were really good. This year.. gosh. Its like I wasnt even trying. Perhaps I wasnt.
Perhaps.

Before I left I was considering "joining" match.com. But how could I honestly go on dates if I'm still in love with my husband. I often think about love. I often wonder am I still in love. I think for a moment and I still have to say yes. I look at pictures of him or even see his face and I just know.

11:24 I still havent decided what to do. I better do something but sit here and find split ends all night.