Bad Girls
So I went to therapy the other day, first time in about 3 months. A lot had gone on since the middle of august.
But at the end of the session, she was saying, on how happy I sounded, looked and acted. She said that I'm doing great. I told her everything I could in our hour long session.
toot toot yea..beep beep
I'm doing great.. cept financially. But with every challenge there is a solution. For a little bit I was actually considering taking some naughty photos and putting them on a website a friend told me about that you can sell them for money. But I figured thats just like being a prostitute its still just sex for money. Doesnt matter if its via the internet, or on the street or in some tiny apartment.
I'm a smart girl. I will come up with something that doesnt require me to sell my self short. Cause I know I'm better than that.
My homeward exile ended yesterday. I went outside. Although I did spend the night over at erlins place the other night, it was still spending it inside. I walked around in downtown ballard, got some errands done.
Today I'm getting stuff done too. I finally feel alive and well enough to get some stuff accomplished. I wish I could of gotten some more things done, but due to this darn strep, only thing I could accomplish was sitting and sleeping.
Tonight I'm going out. I'm going back to the scene of the crime if you will. There is a group of people going to the Rendezvous room tonight. That was the place that Glenn met Dana for the first time. Thats where it all ended. It will be good for me to go there. It will empower me, it will make me feel better and it will be in the company of some good friends. Maybe I will meet a guy who, wont ditch me for a little piece of ass. Yep. Still angry and bitter. But you know what thats fine too. Its all part and parcel of being alive. Loving myself is all I know right now.
So in the Erlin court. I'm going to his moms for t-giving dinner then we are going out dancing. Should be a good day. We still havent had to much of an intimate relationship, since as he says, he's confused over the breakup of his last girlfriend. But he's a great guy and honestly I'm not in any real hurry either. Besides the fact that I havent had any sex in months, but I can hold on as long as I need to. And I am just seeing how things play out. Life is good. And as I've said before. I'm doing ok.
toot toot yea..... beep beep
But at the end of the session, she was saying, on how happy I sounded, looked and acted. She said that I'm doing great. I told her everything I could in our hour long session.
toot toot yea..beep beep
I'm doing great.. cept financially. But with every challenge there is a solution. For a little bit I was actually considering taking some naughty photos and putting them on a website a friend told me about that you can sell them for money. But I figured thats just like being a prostitute its still just sex for money. Doesnt matter if its via the internet, or on the street or in some tiny apartment.
I'm a smart girl. I will come up with something that doesnt require me to sell my self short. Cause I know I'm better than that.
My homeward exile ended yesterday. I went outside. Although I did spend the night over at erlins place the other night, it was still spending it inside. I walked around in downtown ballard, got some errands done.
Today I'm getting stuff done too. I finally feel alive and well enough to get some stuff accomplished. I wish I could of gotten some more things done, but due to this darn strep, only thing I could accomplish was sitting and sleeping.
Tonight I'm going out. I'm going back to the scene of the crime if you will. There is a group of people going to the Rendezvous room tonight. That was the place that Glenn met Dana for the first time. Thats where it all ended. It will be good for me to go there. It will empower me, it will make me feel better and it will be in the company of some good friends. Maybe I will meet a guy who, wont ditch me for a little piece of ass. Yep. Still angry and bitter. But you know what thats fine too. Its all part and parcel of being alive. Loving myself is all I know right now.
So in the Erlin court. I'm going to his moms for t-giving dinner then we are going out dancing. Should be a good day. We still havent had to much of an intimate relationship, since as he says, he's confused over the breakup of his last girlfriend. But he's a great guy and honestly I'm not in any real hurry either. Besides the fact that I havent had any sex in months, but I can hold on as long as I need to. And I am just seeing how things play out. Life is good. And as I've said before. I'm doing ok.
toot toot yea..... beep beep
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