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Not even sure where to begin this one. What an interesting past couple of days.
The glitter sale, seacompression, Erlin, signing divorce papers.
Today was the day I was finally ready to sign them. Still the whole thing is quite upsetting. But I knew it was the best move. Do I think that he is still being an idiot for all of this shit. Oh yea. Do I think he's fucked up. Yep. But surprisingly I feel pretty ambivilant about it all. But perhaps thats the not the right word for how i feel. But I'm not sure what I'm looking for, I just feel fine about it now. Still its a pretty shitty situation. I just feel cold to it all. I was cold as I was leaving his house after I signed the papers. I asked if there was anything else he needed, he said no. I grabbed my stuff and walked out not even looking at him. Perhaps he found that odd. I dont know. Just a wave of indifference washed over me and I knew I was doing the right thing. He's going to be the loser in the end of this.
Anyway.. on to better and happier things.
The glitter sale! Oh my gosh, joy of joys this sale is to me. I got 6 wonderful gowns in size 4-6. Red, black and some shiny silver. Every one is a unique work of art. Some need a little fixing, but thats fine with me. There are dresses that just work it. Pictures to come later once i take them.
Seacompression: Gosh what a night. Time had never moved so fast before. One minute I was getting into the venue, the next moment I'm in someones strong warm arms and they are calling last call. It was a night of so much happiness. I'm getting all warm fuzzies just thinking about it. Some people didnt even recognize me due to my weight loss. It was an amazing experience, walking around in that skin tight dress and not having to think about how I looked. Cause I know I looked beautiful. I had random people coming up to me saying how good I looked and how gorgeous the dress was.
I just cant even begin to describe the happiness.
Speaking of those warm arms. Erlin, computer geek, lives on a houseboat in fremont. Such a cutie. We danced a bit but mostly just held each other, (we had talked off an on throughout the night). A few kisses were exchanged. Ok maybe more than a few.
And get this...
I gotta get to bed. I just felt like saying, I'm doing ok.
The glitter sale, seacompression, Erlin, signing divorce papers.
Today was the day I was finally ready to sign them. Still the whole thing is quite upsetting. But I knew it was the best move. Do I think that he is still being an idiot for all of this shit. Oh yea. Do I think he's fucked up. Yep. But surprisingly I feel pretty ambivilant about it all. But perhaps thats the not the right word for how i feel. But I'm not sure what I'm looking for, I just feel fine about it now. Still its a pretty shitty situation. I just feel cold to it all. I was cold as I was leaving his house after I signed the papers. I asked if there was anything else he needed, he said no. I grabbed my stuff and walked out not even looking at him. Perhaps he found that odd. I dont know. Just a wave of indifference washed over me and I knew I was doing the right thing. He's going to be the loser in the end of this.
Anyway.. on to better and happier things.
The glitter sale! Oh my gosh, joy of joys this sale is to me. I got 6 wonderful gowns in size 4-6. Red, black and some shiny silver. Every one is a unique work of art. Some need a little fixing, but thats fine with me. There are dresses that just work it. Pictures to come later once i take them.
Seacompression: Gosh what a night. Time had never moved so fast before. One minute I was getting into the venue, the next moment I'm in someones strong warm arms and they are calling last call. It was a night of so much happiness. I'm getting all warm fuzzies just thinking about it. Some people didnt even recognize me due to my weight loss. It was an amazing experience, walking around in that skin tight dress and not having to think about how I looked. Cause I know I looked beautiful. I had random people coming up to me saying how good I looked and how gorgeous the dress was.
I just cant even begin to describe the happiness.
Speaking of those warm arms. Erlin, computer geek, lives on a houseboat in fremont. Such a cutie. We danced a bit but mostly just held each other, (we had talked off an on throughout the night). A few kisses were exchanged. Ok maybe more than a few.
And get this...
Maybe we could meet up after you get off work on night this week?Was in his email to me today.
I gotta get to bed. I just felt like saying, I'm doing ok.
posted by B at 11:51 PM
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