Never is a Promise

Got home around 9:30 tonight. Had to stop at QFC for some limes. Its budget drinking night tonight. Its my friday night and I wanted to have some gin and tonics.

I ate my "traditional" pasta and sauce. Even though I think my sauce was a little.. shall we say off. I ate it anyway.

I'm now on drink one.

I will edit this post during every drink. Typos will abound! For This will be my only entertainment of the evening. Well that and maybe some sudoku. If I get really toasty, I will take some naught pics. Maybe I will even post them for my fans or my enemys.

I have a date tomorrow night. And I might be meeting someone for "coffee" also tomorrow. We will see.
I'm just so glad its finally my friday. I need to just veg out for a while.
OK.. more drinking.

Drink 2: I did one puzzle so far and responded to yet ano0ther craigslist ad. I know its just like shots int eh dark,but fuck. If I'm going to be drinking alone and at home for the next few weeks(months), I need some entertainment. Gosh this gin is tasty.
2 people put in thier notice today. 1 person put thier notice in the other day. In the past week 4 people have left my work or will be leaving).

There is a spider walking across my ceiling.

Drink 3: I have this feeling to go out. I dont know why.Maybe cause i've been inside for days. But if i just go to the bar i still will be inside. But at least it will be a different insdie than my apartment (which btw is at a respectable 60degrees now) or work. And just feel the need to be out. Maybe I can find a nice guy at the bar. HA! I kidd myself. At least i'll go out for a bit. I just feel the need to make out with someone. No time for make up. I can still make last call I think.

drink 4: at home. I did waslk to the bar. I did find someone I knew. he didnt buy me a drink. We did talk abotu relationships and the shitty way that men treat women. He is a guy by the way. gah.. I need something. I need someone. but its not exactly need as in being needy. its more like a longing. I long and wish I had someone next to me now, naked, in bed...making out.. *sigh*.. time for another. I spent so long to figure out that sex=love. Now I'm kind of wishing I could switch the wiring in my head just to get some.

Drink 5: Charlotte the Harlot is playing. Its an old iron maiden song.
I like this lyric here

Taking so many men to your room, don't you feel no remorse?
You charge them a "fiver", It's only for starters.
And ten for the main course.
And you've got no feelings, they died long ago.
Don't you care who you let in?
And don't you know you're breaking the law with the service you're giving.

Like i said its an old song, so I'm sure that fiver is a bit more than it was back then.
Another drink another message on craiglist. I know i'm not going to find anything there. And from what the guy tat the bar tells me I'm not going to find anything til; I stop looking. Well right now I'm not in that positon to stop looking. I need to look like its the air I breathe. I just feel like its what I need to be doing, not because I want to or even need to. But just because I just feel its what I should be doing. Not like i have anything to prove to anyoen either like its some compitition or anything. I just want to meet people, and I cant do it when I sit alone in my apartment every night after work. Its 1:33 am now. i'm still sipping on number 5. I kind of miss erlin a bit. Maybe I will write to him some day.