I Know

I know I just bought myself a ticket to go to San Francisco.
I know that my tax return will be paying for it.
I know that I wont be in town on the date that was my anniversary.
I know that I will be with people who love me.
I know that I am going to be so happy to visit my family down there.
I know I'm still scared to fly.
I know this is making me very happy.
I know my bosses are cool by letting me take 2 days off from work.
I know I need a break from work. Not that the ice cream shop is stressful or anything its just I havent had a "vacation" since I got back from the playa back in september.
I know its time to take time for me.

I know its time to eat some dessert and start watching my netflix movie.
I know I am still hurting
I know I'm not sure about scott.
I know its time to end this posting.

eta: scott called me tonight. He wants to take me running on sunday.
He was also kind of hinting at a "day trip" for us some time in april. I guess he likes me. Not bad for a first date guy.