Lost for Words

Lost For Words
I was spending my time in the doldrums
I was caught in a cauldron of hate
I felt persecuted and paralysed
I thought that everything else would just wait

While you are wasting your time on your enemies
Engulfed in a fever of spite
Beyond your tunnel vision reality fades
Like shadows into the night

To martyr yourself to caution
Is not going to help at all
because ther'll be no safety in numbers
When the right one walks out of the door

Can you see your days blighted by darkness?
Is it true you beat your fists on the floor?
Stuck in a world of isolation
While the ivy grows over the door

So I open my door to my enemies
And I ask could we wipe the slate clean
But they tell me to please go fuck myself
You know you just can't win

Pink Floyd

I'm still hurting. Every night before I fall asleep my thoughts are of Glenn. Every morning the same. This morning I woke up and just started crying. I kept thinking theres still a piece to this puzzle thats missing. There is something else out there. There is something.

Something that took someone who said he loved me one minute then kicked me out the house the next.

Some people get over lost love so easily. Why is it so hard for me?
My true love. My only true love.
Why does the pain still haunt me. Grip me and rip me and my heart apart. Time and time again.
I just want to be free of this pain.