Wrapped Around Your Finger

Woke to swollen eyes again.

I'm taking a break from all my message boards. Right now seeing people post about how happy and in love they are just rips me apart. So I just needed to not read that for a while.

I have to leave for work in about a half hour or so. Its gonna be a long day. I feel sick. I'm tired. And my nose is still stuffy.

I think my cold hanging around is because of one of my teeth has to go. Its happened before. I need to go get this root canal or something done about it so I can feel healthy again. This blowing my nose 100times a day is a little old.

How do you break the cycle?
How do you know that there is someone else out there?
Is there a guarantee that there is another person out there?

I dont know how.

In other news I'm still 141 pounds. I still hate the way my belly looks. I'm so tiny everywhere else. But my belly is this protruding reminder that I don't look as good as I can.

Work is odd. But I know I'm not in that job for a long time. I'm just there for the money really. Which reminds me I gotta sign up for that cake decoration class.

eta:
I realized last night when I was laying down to sleep while this is all occuring so much stronger than my normal average amount of pain. It was the weekend of the big climb when he finally told me how he felt.