Out on the Tiles

I'm floundering here. Citibank is completely ruining my life. Want to donate to a good cause.. that cause being me?

Anyone? Couple bucks my way?

So.. Glenn and I had automatic bill pay thru our citibank account. Well they disabled it for no reason. Seriously. I asked them. They didnt know why they closed it. ALl they could say was Sorry. So now they sent me to collections. Ruining my somewhat good credit. ANd I have no way out of it. None of this was my fault. So here i am in collections and trying to figure out what I can sell besides myself. OOH! I can sell a kidney, those have to be worth something right?

I'm considering wiping out what little savings I have to pay off the collections place.

Anyone want to make a donation to me? I'm a charity now.

This whole morning I've been having breathing troubles. My heart is just racing. For a while i thought I was having a heart attack.

Any fairy gothmothers out there want to help this slightly young girl out of a jam.
I'm gonna figure out how to put a paypal button in. Maybe some random acts of people stopping by my little blog will toss a buck or two my way. Or maybe I will start begging on the street, selling "real change" or something in my spare time.

Feel free to email me if you have any suggestions how to get the fuck out of this mess.

The Hitman

Eyes blind, supplicating hands held out before him as if for alms, Garraty walked toward the dark figure. And when the hand touched his shoulder again, he somehow found the strength to run.

Was my favorite line from the book. The Long Walk, Richard Bachman.

STarted this blog entry oh.. about 5 hours ago. Took a nap, did some errands. Even sent a text message. Which i still suck at.

GOing hashing tonight so that should be fun. The only not fun thing is how far away it is. Its going to take like an hour to get there. Pain in the ass.

Weighed myeslf today I am back below (just barely) 150 again. 149 and change. 5 weeks til that thing in the desert. I can only hope im in the 130's by then, hell even high 130's would be prefered. I guess my dream of being at my goal weight for burning man will never exist. I really dont think I will go back to burning man after this year.

Work is just odd and pretty damn busy. There is a huge microsoft convention in town and geeks from all over the world are coming in to eat. Unfortunately some have no clue on how restaurants in America work.

Not much else is new really. I may have a date tomorrow. Pete the guy i saw a few times, is off being a moody turd. So to hell with that. I have no time for that.

Aside from feeling realy tired today, I feel pretty good.

Love Affair

I'm reading a book, that oddly enough I cannot put down. Every time I try I pick it up again to read 4-5 more pages, then I think to myself. Gosh do something else. Work on that little pink jacket you partially got done on your weekend. ALl you have to do is hem the damn thing and put some white racing stripes on the arms (ribbons).

The pink (pepto pink at that) is one of the give aways for the playa. I'm going to try to make at least 10-20 different things to give away. I want to be rid of some of the fabric in this apartment. If I could work it out to have one bin of just give away things that would be best. But we will see.

Went on a really awful date the other day.
I have two netflix discs on my desk, that need to be watched. Yet I keep reading. Started this book yesterday, and here it is 7:30 at night and i'm approx 120 pages in.

Its called the Long Walk. Which is kind of fitting seeing as the name of my blog space here. If they dont keep walking they get shot. If I dont keep going down my own long road.. well I'd get shot too I bet. In a figurative sense I hope.

One thing thats plaguing my mind is staring me in the face. Its a collections letter.
There was an issue with citibank for a couple months and the bill never got paid. Glenn has it on autopay, and something got screwed up and the deductions every month weren't deducted. Now it says we are over due like 1,500 and change. This is of course on my credit rating. Which before this was pretty damn good.
I'm hoping that I can get this cleared up and fixed before any more damage is done.

Then I thought about the massive debt thats still there. ANd there is times that I'm like ya know.. maybe prostitution isnt that bad. Whats a couple dozen fucks in the scheme of things ya know. I could pay off that credit card and only have to worry about getting beaten and some other social diseases. Ya. I guess thats not going to happen. But I have to be honest.. today I seriously considered it.

In the i guess the somewhat good news department. The regional district manager of my work, really likes my work. And is happy with how I'm doing. So i guess thats a perk.
Today at work I got 20$ in tips. Thats more than normal, so that will help towards Oh i dont know.. paying the electic bill or the comcast bill which also came again today. Or maybe even buying soem more groceries.

I'm getting sick of steel cut oatmeal. However usually family meal, is always some sort of mexicanized version of who knows what. Its always some sort of meat, with red and green peppers and hella spicy, which the rest of the staff pours hot sauce over. I just fill up a small bowl of oatmeal, while someone goes to me.. "oatmeal day?" ya.. its always oatmeal day for me.

Tomorrow is an early day. I have to be up at 4:15. Dont know how much longer i will be staying awake tonight. I slept shitty last night.

OOh Eggs and bell peppers are on sale for a dollar at qfc. Maybe I will make some more deviled eggs for the hash/pool party/birthday party for me and another hasher.

I'm turning 35 soon. At least I get to spend it with my friends.Oddly enough I'm going to have to reread my journal entry from last year to see what I was doing last year. I honestly have no recollection of it.

I'm tired.

Bad Seed

I just bought myself Ramen noodles for the first time from the local grocery store cause they were 4 for a dollar.

I used to get the "fancy" ramen noodles from the asian grocery store in the International District. But i fgured eh what the hell. I need some cheep meals in the next few weeks.

I didnt run today. I did go for a walk. It wasnt very long walk but it was something.
I have less than 2 months to lose 15 or more pounds before the playa.

I'm going to be selling the watch that I earned doing the big climb on ebay for the money. I'm also going to be holding a sale in the next few weeks in the carport of my apartment for some cash. I'm calling it a burning man fundraiser.. people donate to lots of those, so i figure why not mine.

Still need to have sex. I did get lots of condoms from planned parenthood. So I'm quite well prepared if anything along those lines should happen to present itself.

Never the Same

Helllllllllo Chunky Chick.

In the past 2 weeks I've put on at least 7 pounds. Could of been more. I'm now at a bulky 154.

I believe i was about 148 for the camping trip at massive.

I've have 7 weeks to knock that down a bit. Or more than a bit. It was the cheese. Its my addiction and i cannot resist it.

In other news.. my allergies are not making me a happy camper. Every morning I wake up with such a stuffy head, sneezing all the time and so forth.

Work is odd.
Speaking of which, I gotta get ready to go.. My leave the house time is in about a half hour, and I gotta get dressed and eat breakfast. These 6am start times are a pain in the ass..

What Is and What Should Never Be

So almost all situated in my new place. Still have some unpacking to do. Put some things on the walls. But i'm here and just trying to enjoy my new space. So far things I really like this place are:

The water pressure.
No squeaky floor above my bedroom
The dishwasher

Did I mention the water pressure. I really didnt know how much I missed taking a shower, until I got in to mine here. The water comes on full blast and just resonates against my skin.

Also just got back from Critical Massive. The Northwest regional burning man event. Was out there from thursday thru sunday. It was a relaxing little getaway.

So other than my bank balance. Life is pretty damn good. OK Other than my bank balance and lack of sex in my life.

I gotta remedy that 2nd one soon however.