Parabola
Yep, its been months again. I apologize if anyone is actually trying to keep track of me.
Lets see.. I'm still single. Still chunky. Still running with my hashers (drinkers with a running problem), still sewing, still living in a pretty messy apartment,still going to file for bankruptcy, still a lot of things.
However some of the thngs that I'm not:
I'm not sad.
I'm not unhappy that I'm single.
I'm not trying to date anymore. (if a date happens to actually appear and i recover from the shock, I will go on it)
I've reached a weird point in my life. It happens quite frequently, where I see where i am emotionally and physically and I know that I'm doing better than I was months ago and definatly a lot better than I was year(s) ago. I feel good about who i am. SUre I still hate my belly fat with a white hot hate, but ya know. I still feel good about who I am.
So in other news. I'm having more good days than bad days. I went to seacompression which in itself was an odd experince for me, cause it made me realize I need more people in my life. I wandered around the place for 4+ hours in heels that killed my feet, but really had no contact with anyone. Sure i stopped and chatted with my friends a few times, but I never really stopped and had a conversation with anyone. But I looked so good doing it.
Yep, made that dress. AND a reversible fur fleece coat in less than 2 weeks. Here is the coat..
just cause (the coat went to a friend)
So the gist of this whole post Is I'm finding things that I need to do for me to make me work better. IE live better. That is, working on sewing projects, going wayout of my way to go to capitol hill to hang out with burning man people and so forth. ANd if it means more nights at home by myself so be it. I just need to do for me what I need to do. Oh and yea.. more going out with the hashers.
IN other news.. Mom is coming for a visit in January. Lots of people are quitting at my work and I am going to have to pull in extra hours in december. Sure the overtime will be lovely, but what am I going to miss out on. I got a facial and a small massage today. I have at least 6 things to pick up at the library tomorrow.
Today was a good day.
I was also thinking alot today about friends. Mostly the friends I havent seen in a while. Ivy, booker, trey, zane and anyone else that didnt make it out to ttitd. I wanted to get in a trip down to LA to go on a lil fabric buying spree. But I think work is gonna have other ideas for me.
Oh yea.. I'm considering on going to school again. This one New York Fashion Academy. I dont know how much it costs, but i know its a 15 month program, and ya know after all of that I might actually know how to put in a fuckin zipper. I still have to email them and see what they need from me and so forth. I certainly cant do laundry at the day spa for the rest of my life.
OOf work is getting so damn weird.
Although I havent turned my heat on, my heat comes on (its an old building and everything doesnt really work right) its staying an average 55 degrees.
Yea I think that updates most things.
I will try to write more often. Hopefully before I get a date.
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Now playing: The_Refreshments - Down Together
via FoxyTunes
Lets see.. I'm still single. Still chunky. Still running with my hashers (drinkers with a running problem), still sewing, still living in a pretty messy apartment,still going to file for bankruptcy, still a lot of things.
However some of the thngs that I'm not:
I'm not sad.
I'm not unhappy that I'm single.
I'm not trying to date anymore. (if a date happens to actually appear and i recover from the shock, I will go on it)
I've reached a weird point in my life. It happens quite frequently, where I see where i am emotionally and physically and I know that I'm doing better than I was months ago and definatly a lot better than I was year(s) ago. I feel good about who i am. SUre I still hate my belly fat with a white hot hate, but ya know. I still feel good about who I am.
So in other news. I'm having more good days than bad days. I went to seacompression which in itself was an odd experince for me, cause it made me realize I need more people in my life. I wandered around the place for 4+ hours in heels that killed my feet, but really had no contact with anyone. Sure i stopped and chatted with my friends a few times, but I never really stopped and had a conversation with anyone. But I looked so good doing it.
Yep, made that dress. AND a reversible fur fleece coat in less than 2 weeks. Here is the coat..
just cause (the coat went to a friend)
So the gist of this whole post Is I'm finding things that I need to do for me to make me work better. IE live better. That is, working on sewing projects, going wayout of my way to go to capitol hill to hang out with burning man people and so forth. ANd if it means more nights at home by myself so be it. I just need to do for me what I need to do. Oh and yea.. more going out with the hashers.
IN other news.. Mom is coming for a visit in January. Lots of people are quitting at my work and I am going to have to pull in extra hours in december. Sure the overtime will be lovely, but what am I going to miss out on. I got a facial and a small massage today. I have at least 6 things to pick up at the library tomorrow.
Today was a good day.
I was also thinking alot today about friends. Mostly the friends I havent seen in a while. Ivy, booker, trey, zane and anyone else that didnt make it out to ttitd. I wanted to get in a trip down to LA to go on a lil fabric buying spree. But I think work is gonna have other ideas for me.
Oh yea.. I'm considering on going to school again. This one New York Fashion Academy. I dont know how much it costs, but i know its a 15 month program, and ya know after all of that I might actually know how to put in a fuckin zipper. I still have to email them and see what they need from me and so forth. I certainly cant do laundry at the day spa for the rest of my life.
OOf work is getting so damn weird.
Although I havent turned my heat on, my heat comes on (its an old building and everything doesnt really work right) its staying an average 55 degrees.
Yea I think that updates most things.
I will try to write more often. Hopefully before I get a date.
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Now playing: The_Refreshments - Down Together
via FoxyTunes
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