Jacob's Ladder
So went to happy hour last night. I figured I could do one "fun" thing and I had my budget and I stuck too it. And it was fun.. to a point.
Towards the end of my evening, a fellow runner told this joke. I didnt find it funny. Then some other words were exchanged and i just left crying. It was such a tough week and I know the comments they made towards me were all in fun and I shouldnt take things as personal as I do. But I was just so tired from this week and so strung out. I cried and left. My friend said hey, come on. It was a joke, blah blah blah. We all love you etc. I just couldnt do it, I couldnt hear it. I said I just want to go home. And i did.
Unfortunately on my way home. I tweaked my mostly improved knee. ANd now its suckage again. I am back to not having full range of motion again. And it feels like it needs to pop. But fuck if i want to try to pop it cause I know the pain is gonna be intense. Maybe I should grab a belt bite down and just flex it out straight again. And it doesnt hurt unless it bends too far.
Did mail some of my ebay stuff off, so thats a good thing. And I just got a $50 check from my Big Fish games sales. (That link over there says games I like to play) seems someone actually bought some games thru that link. So gooooo ME! That will get me some groceries.
Today. Work on my dress, Maybe nap. This evening? Probably watch stargate or battlestar. As I spent my fun money last night. There is a costume hash today, but there is no way I could afford it. Thats the choice i had to make. And i'm good with it.
Towards the end of my evening, a fellow runner told this joke. I didnt find it funny. Then some other words were exchanged and i just left crying. It was such a tough week and I know the comments they made towards me were all in fun and I shouldnt take things as personal as I do. But I was just so tired from this week and so strung out. I cried and left. My friend said hey, come on. It was a joke, blah blah blah. We all love you etc. I just couldnt do it, I couldnt hear it. I said I just want to go home. And i did.
Unfortunately on my way home. I tweaked my mostly improved knee. ANd now its suckage again. I am back to not having full range of motion again. And it feels like it needs to pop. But fuck if i want to try to pop it cause I know the pain is gonna be intense. Maybe I should grab a belt bite down and just flex it out straight again. And it doesnt hurt unless it bends too far.
Did mail some of my ebay stuff off, so thats a good thing. And I just got a $50 check from my Big Fish games sales. (That link over there says games I like to play) seems someone actually bought some games thru that link. So gooooo ME! That will get me some groceries.
Today. Work on my dress, Maybe nap. This evening? Probably watch stargate or battlestar. As I spent my fun money last night. There is a costume hash today, but there is no way I could afford it. Thats the choice i had to make. And i'm good with it.
posted by B at 12:13 PM
2 Comments:
You should probably get that knee looked at. There must be some sort of free clinic you can go to. Think about the long terms effects and issues you might be causing by putting that off--is having your knee work properly for the rest of your life worth less than the cost of having it looked at now?
When I called all the free clinics in seattle. They were either all full or couldnt get me in to see a doctor for 1.5-2 months.
I know i should get it looked at.. I might ask my mom for some money to go to a doctor.
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