Blood Roses

A quick follow up to the last post.

I binged tonight. I try not to do that often. But tonight was one of those weird compbination nights of, sadness, lonelyness, unhapppi, boredom, ugli, and etc. All mearging into a giant snowball.

I put the cheese away.


I thought about how many HOURS i will spend at the gym tomorrow. As I so want to fit into a certain dress when I go to inter hash.

I also just dont want to be a fucking fat pig any more.

I ate cheese, bicuits and chocolate tonight. Not to mention beer and ouzo. lemme say.,. rolling out some biscuits with some chocolate chips in the middle is so fuckin yummy. Warm. Yea warm is nice. I kinda binged on that to. I actually turned my heat on tonight up to 55 degrees. I'm living in style.

I have over a pound of calories to burn tomorrow.

Blue Collar Suicide

(wow i hope that title is spelled right)

Its been a long drink day. I'm now sitting here sipping on a bottle of ouzo 12 (Hi zane!) Its one of the only bottles left in my drinking cabinet.

I helped a friend move today. I also realized what fuckin pain in the ass it is to help someone else move. With that said.. my landlord just raised my rent another 100$ . oh yea.. struggling economy and all and he has to raise it more. And its not even a good apartment. 900 for this lap of luxury i'm in a month. Basement apartment under a laudnry room.

Still no job, but the weight loss is going well. I've lost almost 20 pounds so far.

Heh there is still playa dust on this bottle of ouzo.

Ebay sales are going ok. They are helping me survive. Its one thing i've learned in this period of economic crisis is how to not spend money when I dont need too. I dont go out anymore. I watch every freakin dollar I spend. I am so cautios with my money. I'm selling things on ebay that I never thought I part with just for the cash.

My friend while he was moving found his wedding ring. I was like oh yea.. I still haev one of those. Wonder if I could get 1000 for it. (its worth like oh i dont know Lots more htan 1k) Anyone need a 1/2 carat vv diamon in a platinum setting?

As far as the job thing goes. I'm so frustrated. I send resumes out by the dozens and nothing. Its like my resume and cover letter is just the fodder for office humor.

I couldnt even get hired by trader joes. I must really suck.
OK I know thats not true. I know a bajillion peope are out of work.

Gosh. I'm pretty sure If i get desperate enough I will start selling off my fabric and dress collection. But I hope it doesnt come to that.

Oh yea. in other news. dating? fuck dating. Although I did anounce on the dating site that I'm ready to date again. There are no men beating down this old womans door.

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