Ramble On
really this blog entry (and I know its been a while since i've written one) should be really entitled, B & the 4 boys.
After months.. MONTHS if not years.. I have found myself being attracted to 4 different guys. All different and for all different reasons. Some I'm more attracted to than others.
Which is really an odd dilemma for me to have. Usually there is no one.
Lets start from the least known to the most known.
Mark - random meeting at a local dive bar, I was considerably intoxicated at the time. but something about him was just so interesting. that was my first and only meeting with him. on following visits to said dive bar, I told some of the locals that I was interested in talking to him, not only did he say that he remembered me, but also wanted to get my number, when they offered to get it from me to give to him, he said no, he wanted to do it the "old fashioned way". So there is a guy somewhere in ballard that wants to ask me out, but these 2 ships keep passing in the night. Who knows if/when we will pass close enough again.
Darrell - "met" him originally via the Stranger personals, we had a very in depth discussion about kurt Vonnegut. He is now an occasional hasher. Very attractive and lives local'ish. Really would like to get to know him better. Because really thats all I got here.
Ron - guy in idaho, also met once at burning man. We have chatted via im numerous times, have shared details about our lives and so forth. He is a hasher and a burner who very important qualifications for me. Gorgeous with a capital G. Also a pilot. I was planning to get a flight out to see him a few weeks ago but due to my financial situation, not exactly in the game plan. Really would love a visit with him, just to hash with him and ya know eye candy does a body good sometimes. Even people like myself who still battles with her weight. I remember one email he sent to me, he said something along the lines of.. "yes, I remember those breasts" I was wearing a very loose dress at the hash at burning man and my boobs (non sport bra'd) were a bit on the showy side. He also wanted to hang out with me more after the hash, but signals got crossed some how during circle.
Bryon - Ah.. Bryon, Met via ok cupid about 2+ months ago and have pseduo not "dated" but have gone out at as friends for the past few months. Cause some how it seemed like the right thing to do. We are both divorcee's for our various reasons. He is also a childfree by choice type person, so thats cool. He is a geek, which is also good. He is so freakin sweet.
A week or so ago, he messaged me and asked if I wanted to ride on his motorcycle to leavenworth, a Bavarian themed "city" in central'ish washington. So for two+ hours I had my arms around him, which I'm sure he loved. We got there and shared a meal and a beer, wandered the city and just hung out for a bit, then another 2+ hours on the bike home. I met his brother as well as his niece on the trip back. We then went out to dinner in ballard, and he is like "i gotta try something" i was like what, you want to kiss me. And I gave him just the quickest peck on the lips. Which he tells me was only a nose bump, I beg to differ.
But something just told me to hang out with him again. It was tuesday or wednesday that I hung out with him again and spent the night, just cuddling happened, no kissing even.
Then friday, I joined him up on capitol hill after happy houring with the hashers. Had our first "real" kiss and a bit more on the intimate side happened. But i'm not going to kiss and tell any more than that. But we spent the entire weekend together. Cheese festival, hung out with his friends in capitol hill and kirkland and it was all so much fun, and we even held hands a good portion of the day which made me feel all giddy.
It was nice, really nice to feel wanted, to feel the touch of a man. To just be held. Do i know where its going to go? Nope. Do I know where I want it to go? nope. But I like how he makes me feel.. and there is this one look that he gives me at times that just makes me melt just a bit and feel so sexy the next.
In other news, still unemployed, thats 8 months for those keeping track at home. Am on food assistance and go to the food bank occasionally. But still keeping myself entertained and happy somehow.
Marathon training is.. sporadic. I'm still planning on doing it.. so we will see how that goes.
Weight is approx 154 currently.
Did I mention I am still hopefull about finding work and am pretty darn happy.
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Now playing: Liz Phair - Everything (Between Us)
via FoxyTunes
After months.. MONTHS if not years.. I have found myself being attracted to 4 different guys. All different and for all different reasons. Some I'm more attracted to than others.
Which is really an odd dilemma for me to have. Usually there is no one.
Lets start from the least known to the most known.
Mark - random meeting at a local dive bar, I was considerably intoxicated at the time. but something about him was just so interesting. that was my first and only meeting with him. on following visits to said dive bar, I told some of the locals that I was interested in talking to him, not only did he say that he remembered me, but also wanted to get my number, when they offered to get it from me to give to him, he said no, he wanted to do it the "old fashioned way". So there is a guy somewhere in ballard that wants to ask me out, but these 2 ships keep passing in the night. Who knows if/when we will pass close enough again.
Darrell - "met" him originally via the Stranger personals, we had a very in depth discussion about kurt Vonnegut. He is now an occasional hasher. Very attractive and lives local'ish. Really would like to get to know him better. Because really thats all I got here.
Ron - guy in idaho, also met once at burning man. We have chatted via im numerous times, have shared details about our lives and so forth. He is a hasher and a burner who very important qualifications for me. Gorgeous with a capital G. Also a pilot. I was planning to get a flight out to see him a few weeks ago but due to my financial situation, not exactly in the game plan. Really would love a visit with him, just to hash with him and ya know eye candy does a body good sometimes. Even people like myself who still battles with her weight. I remember one email he sent to me, he said something along the lines of.. "yes, I remember those breasts" I was wearing a very loose dress at the hash at burning man and my boobs (non sport bra'd) were a bit on the showy side. He also wanted to hang out with me more after the hash, but signals got crossed some how during circle.
Bryon - Ah.. Bryon, Met via ok cupid about 2+ months ago and have pseduo not "dated" but have gone out at as friends for the past few months. Cause some how it seemed like the right thing to do. We are both divorcee's for our various reasons. He is also a childfree by choice type person, so thats cool. He is a geek, which is also good. He is so freakin sweet.
A week or so ago, he messaged me and asked if I wanted to ride on his motorcycle to leavenworth, a Bavarian themed "city" in central'ish washington. So for two+ hours I had my arms around him, which I'm sure he loved. We got there and shared a meal and a beer, wandered the city and just hung out for a bit, then another 2+ hours on the bike home. I met his brother as well as his niece on the trip back. We then went out to dinner in ballard, and he is like "i gotta try something" i was like what, you want to kiss me. And I gave him just the quickest peck on the lips. Which he tells me was only a nose bump, I beg to differ.
But something just told me to hang out with him again. It was tuesday or wednesday that I hung out with him again and spent the night, just cuddling happened, no kissing even.
Then friday, I joined him up on capitol hill after happy houring with the hashers. Had our first "real" kiss and a bit more on the intimate side happened. But i'm not going to kiss and tell any more than that. But we spent the entire weekend together. Cheese festival, hung out with his friends in capitol hill and kirkland and it was all so much fun, and we even held hands a good portion of the day which made me feel all giddy.
It was nice, really nice to feel wanted, to feel the touch of a man. To just be held. Do i know where its going to go? Nope. Do I know where I want it to go? nope. But I like how he makes me feel.. and there is this one look that he gives me at times that just makes me melt just a bit and feel so sexy the next.
In other news, still unemployed, thats 8 months for those keeping track at home. Am on food assistance and go to the food bank occasionally. But still keeping myself entertained and happy somehow.
Marathon training is.. sporadic. I'm still planning on doing it.. so we will see how that goes.
Weight is approx 154 currently.
Did I mention I am still hopefull about finding work and am pretty darn happy.
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Now playing: Liz Phair - Everything (Between Us)
via FoxyTunes
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